I had this blog started about five days ago. coming to terms with the reality of the situation and circumstances surrounding my life, plus its a Sunday morning, I’m up to nothing,just laying in bed and being lazy, and so it seems to be the right time to put a couple of thoughts to words.
”fool proof” hmm… ”fudge”…. well this is not a write-up on how to prepare the savory. it’s what I have become over time.I have experienced a lot of things in life. I will call them trials..yes. I succeeded through it all over the period and I have come to understand why and how I can experience inner peace and joy as and when these trials arise.
In my relationship with family and friends, my daily dealings and activities I have KNOWN betrayal, hurt, pain, and anger. some of these emotions happen one after the other and at some point..like its been put in a blender and prepared as a smoothie, it all comes rushing together. I get stressed, depressed, and totally shuttered..until my moment of epiphany came and I thought to myself.but why do I have to allow certain people and circumstances dictate my emotions and bring me to this tons and tons of self-pity and ill feeling supermarket. I needed joy, I needed peace, God needed that for me too.I prayed, I cried, I asked Him to take away all this hurt and pain, I wanted it all to go because it felt lik I was in bondage. I was a prisoner at a prison cell I created and punished myself for things other people did wrong. But how can I do this to myself?? I can’t control how people act towards me but YES I can control how I react.I choose freedom I break my prison walls ..i don’t want to be punished for people’s dishonesty and shrewdness.
I came out a foolproof, am saving for serenity each day as it goes by because this not only what I want but what God had promised me.
“now may the peace of God that surpasses all understanding be with you now and always “